Is it possible that 3/4 members of my immediate family have an eating disorder? I knew mental illness was rife on my Dad’s side, but that’s just crazy.
My mum is seriously thinking my Dad has binge eating disorder. She’s actually concerned, and so is he. He really has all of the characteristics.
My brother is still so consumed by selective eating disorder. All he has eaten today is white bread. We had a family lunch today and that was still all he ate.
And then there’s me. Just crazy old me.
6:28 am • 8 December 2013 • 2 notes
And at the end of the day, what about losing weight, or shrinking your dress size, really matters. Because I sure hope when I am old and grey, I’m not sitting around saying “I really do wish I spent my 20’s being slimmer”… I guarentee it’ll be more along the lines of “I really wish I spent less of my life worrying about my size, and just truly enjoying the short time I have here.”
Some very important words here
Kind of changed my night.
6:23 am • 8 December 2013 • 1,431 notes
So amazing! Chocolate and coconut baked oats, topped with strawberries! Literally baked oats are my life.
7:13 pm • 3 December 2013 • 2 notes
In my mind for the last few days, my mother would have spent this afternoon planning my funeral.
Instead, I spent the afternoon playing under a hose with my brother and planning a dinner date with my mum tomorrow night.
I’m happy again, I love life again. Things are good again.
Things do get better, I just couldn’t see it. I’m just glad things looked up before I caved. I’ve just got to remember that before the next funk - it’s never the end, things do get better.
3:37 am • 3 December 2013 • 2 notes
Achievement: last night I fell asleep for the first time in three nights, not fantasying and planning my suicide
Things are good now. My mum isn’t mad at me and she has given up on her make life tough for me plan. We both cried and hugged last night and she said how sorry she was, that she doesn’t have a parenting manual and she’s only trying to learn and do the right thing by me. We’re besties now again and she’s going to let me be more independent and she’ll back off a bit.
Everything is good again in the world.
P.S. Coconut and chocolate baked for breakfast = a winner
8:16 pm • 2 December 2013
All I want for Christmas is happiness!
Not a laptop, car, pet, money, phone, Ipod, clothes or anything else that won’t change my life…. just simply Happiness within my own body.
12:51 am • 2 December 2013 • 69 notes